faith or lack of it.

i worry. i really do worry quite a lot, most of it needlessly. such as today.

So the course i want to do at uni is very hard to get into. and the only hostel i've applied for could get full very quickly.
so basically if i don't get accepted into my hostel i'm screwed. and i don't even need to worry about hostel unless i do well in these coming exams. if i don't i don't even have a course i want to do.
eek.

so this has led me to an afternoon of stressed franticness. searching other uni's for courses i want to do. and then looking at other accomodation in auckland in the hope of finding something suitable and in all of it i forgot a few important things regarding the life i live.

1] i don't have to worry. there is a plan and a purpose. i will always have something to do with my life
2] a month ago i was all about taking a gap year. if i don't get in i start working until i figure out what i want to do. there is no rush.
3] in all of this my lack of faith that God will provide for me shows the backsliding that has been happening and the seeking of Him that i really need to do.

so i am applying for auckland uni. no others.
i'm applying for the baptist hostel and probably O'Rorke Hostel.

If these don't work out life has not ended. it will go on and i will go on with it, secure in the fact that i will always have God's plan. i will stand reassured in the hope of God.

it's pretty sweet really. i have no reason to worry.
worst comes to worse i stay in new plymouth and work....

eek.