Leaving

My first 'blog' and I'm caught up with leaving.

Seeing the place I will be living next year has turned into a sudden realisation that nothing is forever.
Even the life I move into next year is only for four years and then I once again will be finding myself in the same place.

I'm in a vulnerable place at the moment. Maybe because I have made some very important decisions recently and am second guessing myself, maybe it's because I am worried about the future, about leaving my friends and family, about leaving all I know. But most likely it's that feeling of being very small in a very big plan and not sure where I'm being taken.

On returning home from Mt Maunganui/Auckland I picked up a book and began to read. Donald Miller's book Through Painted Deserts is something I have not read yet. I have read Blue Like Jazz and the beginning of Searching for God Knows What but not Through Painted Deserts.
Through Painted Deserts is about Donald Miller leaving home. Slightly ironic considering leaving home is what has been on my mind all weekend.

Check out Donald Millers work. I'll let you borrow the book. You'll like it. Promise.

From Authors Note:
'I could not have known then that everybody, every person, has to leave, has to change like seasons; they have to or they die. The seasons remind me that I must keep changing, and I want to change because it is God's way....
Everybody has to change or they expire. Everybody has to leave, everybody has to leave their home and come back so they can love it again for all new reasons.
I want to keep my soul fertile for the changes, so things keep getting born in me, so things keep dying when it is time for things to die. I want to keep walking away from the person I was a moment ago, because a mind was made to figure things out, not to read the same page recurrently.''

So I think this is one of the reasons I am going to do this, as we leave, as we change, I want you, my friends, to be able to know where I'm at, to see where I'm going. Even when we are in separate cities, I want you to know whats on my mind.

I'll try my best to be transparent, to tell you the truth and to make this as deep and exciting as possible.

=] muy bien gracias.