how time drags.

How has it only been 11 days since I was in America?
I'm sure it has been at least a month. It feels like i haven't seen these girls in forever.

As for news. Uni is a happening thing after all.
I'm doing a Conjoint Degree [two at the same time]
Bachelor of Theology; majoring in Biblical Studies. &&
Bachelor of the Arts; majoring in Emplyoment Relations and Organisation Studies.

Summer is beautiful. But I miss the snow.
Parachute starts tomorrow! =]
I am looking forward to my Saturday night up there.

It has been nice catching up with people I haven't seen in ages.
My lack of job, although it means I'm broke, allows me a lot of social time I wouldn't otherwise have.
So I'm not complaining.
I LIKE SPENDING TIME WITH MY FRIENDS
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[beckyes smiley face]







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paths.

My hair is salty and a mess.
The air is warm, it’s 9:30pm and I’m in damp togs with shorts and a singlet.
I like it. I feel like nothing matters right now. That I could do nothing but swim and lie in the sun all day with a book and it would be alright.

Mount Maunganui is a beautiful place. It is amongst this beauty I’m waiting for God to show, to soothe my heart and calm my soul that lately has been ravaged by many things that are too persistent to ignore.

Exam results are out and my future is no longer certain.
University is no longer where my path is headed. It has been guided in another direction that I cannot see. I have been set on a path I do not know, that I cannot see what is to come and means I must take every moment as it comes.

Jehovah jireh – God, our provider.

Lately I have been learning. The whole past month and a bit has been full of learning.
♥ I have learnt that I am much better with words and writing and research than I am with numbers, problems and solving.
♥ I have learnt that I am more flexible to fit into different situations than I thought or have allowed myself to be.
♥ That sometimes the best thing I can do is just be silent and patient.
♥ That I have grown in the past year and a half; that I actually have changed and become more of who God wants me to be.
♥ I have learnt what it means to love God with everything. I have seen it in practise.

And so I wonder what this season will bring; what I will learn in this painful, messy, spontaneous, unknown and scary time of my life that I am just starting into.

I think somewhere inside me I’m excited.
But I don’t quite realise it right now.

and times flies.

Two days.
Two days.
Two freaking days left in my second home.

Time has passed quicker than I feel it should have.
I feel somewhat cheated and robbed; but satisfied and content simultaneously.



Since New Years, we have been busy.
Trying to go places, see things, spend time with people and make the most of the time I have left.
We have been to Lake Tahoe for a night =]
We have been snowboarding.
I have hung out with the friends I've made.
I have spent time with Beck, Leez and Sarah.
I have done a hundred other things and loved them all.

Tomorrow and Saturday will be spent in the company of friends.
And finishing up last minute things before I head home.

New Year

I welcomed in the New Year in a place that for the past 25 days has been my home; a place that feels like my home.

They say home is where the heart is. If this is the case, both my heart and home are torn and in two different places.

My heart is with my family, my friends back home and my beautiful country.
But my heart is in Placerville California with the people I've met and spent time with. It is in the house where I've lived, it is in the memories I've made and it is most certainly with three stunning girls who I cannot yet comprehend walking away from to return home.
But yet, this does not matter. My heart is whole, God is big and He has a plan.
I will see them again soon. ♥

This year is going to be about many things.
It is going to be about change.
It is going to be about decisions.
It will be about losing some friendships and gaining new ones.
It will be about growing up, about taking responsibility.
It is about my future.
But more and more, I see a need for this year to be about God more than ever.
For me to seek God, to chase Him like I have never done so before.


I cannot know what will happen. But I am growing faith.
God is Jehovah-jireh [the Lord our provider]. He will provide all which I need.

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On a side note;
my New Years was great. The best I can remember.
The wedding, the after-party, dancing late into the night and then coming home to a shower and bed.
Liz, Beck and I go to Yosemite tomorrow for some girl time overnight.
Sunday; Church and hanging out with Church people, then college group.
Monday; Lake Tahoe with Sarah, Liz and Rebekah for another day of bonding.
Then the week will be filled with day trips. Visiting a couple of people, maybe another trip to Tahoe.
Friday night is the last night with the girls.
Saturday; possibly the day in San Fran with a whole bunch of people and flying out that night.

It came around far too soon.
I'm not ready to leave.